Hey everyone I hope your 2022 has been going wonderful so far sorry I haven’t been very active as it’s been a very busy start to the year for me. My fiancé has finally gone back to work after a long few months of no work which is amazing but that also makes me a full-time mom again and not much time to myself. Thankfully I have a lot of family supporting me in around me all the time to help out when I need help, I am very fortunate to be able to live with my grandmother who is also my best friend.
My days consist of making breakfast lunch and snack time, playing hockey most of my day and trying to do fun and educational things with my son but at two years old his attention span isn’t the greatest at times. When I was 20 years old I went through a program to get my early childhood education certificates only made it through year one for the fact that if I wanted to have my own children one day even though I have stepchildren I wanted to not have to work with children all day long and then go home to my own children and not have the patience for my own. I love working with children and I love helping their minds grow and being a big influential part to their lives but I’d rather be that person for my own children. Lately more and more I have been thinking about going back to work or going back to school I love being a stay at home mom I really do but I want to be able to help my fiancé with all of the bills and saving for a house and other things we want to do. But on the other hand I am also horrified to put my son into a daycare with Covid still around his immune system is good for the most part but he also hasn’t been around a lot of kids his age because Covid came at the worst time possible. I know I may sound selfish because you know there’s a lot of parents that don’t have the option to stay home with your kids and I have been blessed with that option but I saw what daycare‘s did to my stepchildren and with the school system has been to my kids immune system‘s and I don’t want the same thing to happen to his at such a little age especially with Covid around. He is around a lot of children through my family and when he does get sick it only lasts a day or two so his immune system is strong enough to fight it off I know that much but I do have the fear of Covid constantly in my head if I were to put him in a daycare.
My fiancé and I have talked a lot about this and plan was for me to go back to school or work when he starts school but I do feel like that could be quite some time as we are trying for baby number two, if I do end up pregnant am I gonna end up doing the same thing I did with my son and stay at home until they go to school as well? I know I have been very fortunate to be able to do that but being a stay at home mom definitely is not for the weak. Being a full-time mom is a wonderful bonding time with my child I can honestly say that me and him do you have a tight relationship even at 2 1/2 years old , but there are days where I do miss getting out and doing things for myself or Going to work and getting away for the day. With a full time working man whose hours vary every day makes it very hard to be able to get out and do things on a day-to-day basis especially with how cold the winters are here and only having the one vehicle for the household.
But this year I promised to myself that this will be our year it’ll be a better year it will be a healthier year and we are going to take this year by storm. No more holding ourselves back from opportunities of greatness or opportunities of financial freedom we are going to finally try and give ourselves a life we deserve. No more living in fear and honestly no more living in fear of Covid as bad as we all have been because this is our new normal we need to get back to some kind of normalcy.
Now I hope you all have a wonderful day and you’ll be hearing from me again soon. XOXOO one broken ass mama!!!
Broken Mama 